Yay, a scrapbooking day!

Well not really, a whole day, but an evening!  I was able to get four pages done out of my brother's wedding album (his Christmas present), and it felt great to finally get it started.  I'll post some pictures once I get it done.  It felt really great to get back in my room and do something crafty. 

I did have a good workout with Jo today.  I have to keep the long term goal in mind, and sometimes it's really hard.  I almost didn't go today, feeling like a wanted to have my own pity party...should I go???  should I go????  What finally did the trick was remembering the white shirt I had seen a lady wear at a party I went to...classy shirt, beautiful fabric...loved it...but there's no way I can wear it now, the tummy just isn't there...YET!  So off I went....felt good once I was there...how come it's so hard to get out the door?  I know I'm healthier, I know I"m stronger...can't wait for the scale to say the same thing!

An early Friday

Kind of sort of!  We have a short week this week, due to Remembrance Day, and a day-in-lieu!  Yay!

Had the weirdest experience at the gym yesterday.  I was sitting on the floor putting on the runners and had a "charlie-horse" in my stomach.  Was weird!!!  Went away after awhile...I continued on with my workout...but felt my stomach muscles all night!  Weird!!  Still feeling it a bit today but nowhere as bad as it was last night.  Today is rest day...probably much needed!  :)

I'm getting a little frustrated with my lack of weight loss...grrrrr....but I'll keep going!!!

Another day, another dollar!

I got some really good news at school today, we're are raking in the credits!  yay!  The hard part to swallow is that more than 2/3 are coming from me.  My I knew I was doing a copious amount of marking, and now when I see it in black and white I have total confirmation!  I'm not crazy!!!

However, I was able to get relatively caught up thanks to my fabulous principal, who came in on Friday to help bail me out.

I was a good girl on the weekend, and went to the gym...Amanda kicked my butt.  I have never felt so dizzy at class.  I had to bail on the stairs, which is not how I like to roll.  I kind of felt guilty about it once I got home, but later when I could barely get up off the kitchen floor (I was yes, cleaning), I realized it's okay to say, it's too much.

Tonight is another TRX class, hoping that one goes a bit better.  It's going to be a busy couple of days with report cards, parent/teacher interviews and gym time...but I'm on it like a dirty shirt...and yes I have laundry to do too!  LOL

A hard one

I wen to TRX class today with Amanda at 1pm...first thing I shouldn't have done was had Cheerios for breakfast...not enough...then had a sandwich at 11:30...not enough...thought it wasn't enough so had some almonds following....too much!  When will I finally figure the food part out???? 

Off to class I went, in a huge rush, as I had to pick up Jean-Luc from a birthday party...get there...and I got my butt kicked!  Yes, I did...I had to bail on the stairs...apparently Saturday's and stairs go together!  Who knew?  I have discovered the trials of being 44 are bad knees.  I did the stairs a few times, but I had to ask for something different...irks me that I couldn't make it grrrrrrrr.  Everything seemed hard today...I'm hoping it means I am using different muslces and they're protesting a bit.

For the rest of the day I have been cleaning house and putting stuff away...I got down on my knees to snap the plate back on the bottom of the fridge...almost couldn't get up. :(  I was sitting tonight, watching "Horton Hears a Who" with the kids...could barely get off the couch....what will ache tomorrow????..hmmmmm.....perhaps some Ibuprofen before bed would be a good thing!

Beautiful

I was watcing "What Not to Wear" tonight, and there was a woman on tonight, who was close to the same age as I am.  She had never thought of herself as beautiful.  Stacy and Clinton had to force her to say, "I'm Beautiful!"  As I was watching this, I had tears rolling down my face.  I have NEVER looked in the mirror and thought I was beautiful  Not even when I was the perfect size 7 and 117 pounds, not on my wedding day and certainly not since.    It makes me sad to say this.  I know I have looked "okay" and "nice"  but not beautiful!   Why are we so hard on ourselves?  I know I am a strong woman, the last few years are a testimony to that.  But I can't say it.

I am working hard at making the outside beauitful in my own eyes.  It's a lot of hard work, and hopefully I will start to have some rewards soon. I often wonder why I'm sabotaging myself.   I know the inside is beautiful.....at least that's what I hope others around me see -- the real me, not the one I see in the mirror.

I am trying hard get there.......

And surgery it is

But, I just don't know when yet!  I went to the surgeon for my appointment this morning; nice lady!!  She said I'll should have surgery in the next two months, depending on of course, howe busy the hospital gets to be!  I am hoping before Christmas...or after Christmas.  As you all know how much I love Christmas...and why be off when I can paid to be at home recooperating :)

I still go into surgery with some trepidation...it's been a long time...16 years in fact, but I NEVER want to face a gall bladder attack again. 

On another note, will be going to the gym tonight...kids have music lessons at 7, so off I'll go!  :)  Darn shouldn't have eaten those cookies for lunch!  :)  At least they were home made with oatmeal and coconut...right?????

Another day

Well, I realized it's been almost 7 months since I posted anything on my blog and mostly it's because I haven't  scrapped much...so  I'm changing gears.  I'm thinking I'm going to try and use the blog to relate a bit of my experiences at Jo Dumont's Fitness Training Center.  Or Jo's!  I have been going to Jo's since mid-August.  I don't think I've ever lasted so long going to a workout center.  Have I lost tons of weight?  No.  Have I lost tons of inches?  No.  Have I increased my fitness?  Yes!  Which is I guess what counts.  We had a TRX class tonight, and while I'll never say a class is wonderful and that I actually enjoy it; I felt really proud of myself tonight.  I had to break a time or two on my planks...but I didn't quit!  I told Jo tonight my goal was to be able to do a certain type of plank..because Robert can't do it!  So the goal has been set!

Sometimes it's really frustrating as I have so much weight to lose, yet the pounds aren't coming off.  Diet!  I need to start tracking again :) Yes I do.  I am hoping I can get measured tomorrow...hopefully I'll see that some of the inches are making their way off!