It's been busy! Can you tell, I haven't made a post! I am itching for the next few days to be over! Robert and the kids finished school yesterday...me....I wait until Tuesday! Which is okay, as I'll have two extra days on the other end!
I'm still rocking the gym, 4 days so far this week! I thought on Monday and Tuesday, "I'm rockin' it! I feel great! I can do this!" then......on Wed. and Thursday Amanda kicked my a$$; yes she did. I was still and sore on Friday, again wondering, "Why am I doing this to myself?". So Friday night was treat night! We had our Christmas open house last night. I sampled everything that I wanted to. I had 3 glasses of wine...I held a 2 and a half month old baby for a hour! Yay me! AND had the best time with our friends! Where was I going with this...oh yes...food. I am very proud of myself. While I sampled all those yummy munchies that I love, I did NOT pig out, I did NOT eat excessively, and I still got to have my Christmas treats. I'm learning!
And now it's Saturday morning, I just got up a little while ago, and was trying to talk myself out of going to the gym....then I read Jo's new website. So I have eaten a wrap with my favorite crunchy peanut butter, and I'm off to change into my workout clothes...yes I'm going, as much as I tried to talk myself out of it...I can't! I know I'll feel guilty for the rest of the weekend! :) Off I go!
"The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched - they must be felt with the heart." Helen Keller
Saturday, December 18, 2010
Monday, December 6, 2010
The Positive Journey
And so the journey starts again. I had my meeting with Jo on Friday, we discussed my food journal, the goods, the bads...and really I think I eat well. Again, still not enough. I think I may need a few slaps to get through to my thick head that I need to eat more. However, I started my weekend, not thinking so much about how much I was eating for "what I was eating". And as long as I was staying away from the processed food, and junk I was good.
One of the first things Jo told me I had to do was put the scale away. The only time I will weigh myself is when it's my time to measure at JDFT. I couldn't believe how hard it was to put it away. AND how tempted I was to weigh myself before I put it away. But I didn't! Talk about a slave to the scale! I have some heavy head thoughts I need to put at bay. I think I have been told so often, to not eat that...that's fattening...that's not healthy.....it's hard to keep the positive thoughts in my head.
Being overweight really sucks. (don't tell my kids I used the word sucks"). It's so hard on the self esteem. The girl I see in the mirror is not the one I feel looking out through my eyes. Do I want to be 17 again? Nope! Do I want to be 27 again? nope...but I sure wouldn't mind the body I had back then; I'm pretty sure I'd take better care of it, if I knew then what I knew now!
But it's a new day, and time to start again. One of my assignemnts is to search out images of how I'd like to look. I told Robert I had to do this, as a Victoria Secret commercial came on...he turned and looked at me with a big grin...."like that?".. funny guy....wouldn't that be nice...but I would need about 6 inches of height and bigger boobs! Maybe the rest is attainable? LOL
Jo also asked me to come up with a physical challenge. Scary thoughts came crashing through my head....a goal...really....what if I fail....I will fail...no I can't do that....I have to commit?....I'm SCARED!!! I had tears welling up in my eyes.....talk about low self esteem. Jo mentioned things like a 5 km run...sit ups...push ups....chin lifts....nothing seemed right. When I talked to Robert about it; he said it's your decision...men! Saturday I went to TRX and Jo and Amanda decided they would create a obstacle course for me...kind of like on the show X-Weighted...so this week...look out, I think I'll probably die..but the goal is in 3 months I can be a winner! Yay Tracee...and so it begins.... off to buy a new food journal after school today, so can add more journalling about my day as well.
One of the first things Jo told me I had to do was put the scale away. The only time I will weigh myself is when it's my time to measure at JDFT. I couldn't believe how hard it was to put it away. AND how tempted I was to weigh myself before I put it away. But I didn't! Talk about a slave to the scale! I have some heavy head thoughts I need to put at bay. I think I have been told so often, to not eat that...that's fattening...that's not healthy.....it's hard to keep the positive thoughts in my head.
Being overweight really sucks. (don't tell my kids I used the word sucks"). It's so hard on the self esteem. The girl I see in the mirror is not the one I feel looking out through my eyes. Do I want to be 17 again? Nope! Do I want to be 27 again? nope...but I sure wouldn't mind the body I had back then; I'm pretty sure I'd take better care of it, if I knew then what I knew now!
But it's a new day, and time to start again. One of my assignemnts is to search out images of how I'd like to look. I told Robert I had to do this, as a Victoria Secret commercial came on...he turned and looked at me with a big grin...."like that?".. funny guy....wouldn't that be nice...but I would need about 6 inches of height and bigger boobs! Maybe the rest is attainable? LOL
Jo also asked me to come up with a physical challenge. Scary thoughts came crashing through my head....a goal...really....what if I fail....I will fail...no I can't do that....I have to commit?....I'm SCARED!!! I had tears welling up in my eyes.....talk about low self esteem. Jo mentioned things like a 5 km run...sit ups...push ups....chin lifts....nothing seemed right. When I talked to Robert about it; he said it's your decision...men! Saturday I went to TRX and Jo and Amanda decided they would create a obstacle course for me...kind of like on the show X-Weighted...so this week...look out, I think I'll probably die..but the goal is in 3 months I can be a winner! Yay Tracee...and so it begins.... off to buy a new food journal after school today, so can add more journalling about my day as well.
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
And again
I am feeling so frustrated. I had to let this stew for a little bit, and not write immediately. It would not have been nice!
I got weighed and measured yesterday....hmpf! I was not impressed! I really feel like I have been working hard and being fairly diligent with calorie tracking as well as going to TRX and circuit training classes. But absolutely no results...none...nada...zilch! It really sucks. (please do not tell my kids I used that word).
okay, now that I had my own little pity party. I have booked in a session with Jo on Friday to do a bit of an analysis of what I have been doing right and what I can improve on. Here is hoping to success on that front. I do not want to say I am going to give up, but it is very close to the tip of my tongue. Going to the gym 4 days a week translates to about 6.5 hours out of my week that my house is not being cleaned, and my kids are not getting specific directions from their mother. It does not sound like very much, but I really feel like the house is falling apart...the kids are getting away from me...and then there is the fact that I am not having success....frustrating!!!
But I will start.....again!
I got weighed and measured yesterday....hmpf! I was not impressed! I really feel like I have been working hard and being fairly diligent with calorie tracking as well as going to TRX and circuit training classes. But absolutely no results...none...nada...zilch! It really sucks. (please do not tell my kids I used that word).
okay, now that I had my own little pity party. I have booked in a session with Jo on Friday to do a bit of an analysis of what I have been doing right and what I can improve on. Here is hoping to success on that front. I do not want to say I am going to give up, but it is very close to the tip of my tongue. Going to the gym 4 days a week translates to about 6.5 hours out of my week that my house is not being cleaned, and my kids are not getting specific directions from their mother. It does not sound like very much, but I really feel like the house is falling apart...the kids are getting away from me...and then there is the fact that I am not having success....frustrating!!!
But I will start.....again!
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